Updated: Jan 17
Do you wake up feeling like you are ready to bounce out of bed with the birds chirping and the sun shining? Do you go to bed with excitement for the next day? Are you refreshed, renewed, and ready for whatever life throws at you?
Yeah... me neither, but doesn’t that sound good?
Mornings are a struggle for me these days. They have not always been. When I was younger, I was a morning person. I get it honestly from my daddy. He would wake up scatting like James Brown at 4 am.
I used to wake up to teach at 5 am when I worked at an early school. The house was quiet, and I was alone. I took my time getting ready and spent time with God. It was just me, and most days the sun hadn’t even woken up yet. It was peaceful.
Then I had Lily, and things became a little hectic, but we adapted. She is a morning person, like me, after ten minutes of waking up. A few years later, Knox came... The first year of his life was smooth sailing in the mornings! I began my fitness journey shortly after he was born in 2017, and I felt better than I had in my whole life! I felt like Cinderella waking up. I was excited for the day. My work friends would even get annoyed with how peppy I was at 7:45 a.m.
Fast forward to Covid, many obstacles, and a tragic loss later...
I am no longer a morning person. Knox is not a morning person. He. is. NOT. a. morning. person.
Let me explain... I thought my sister wasn’t a morning person. False. He takes the cake. He takes not being a morning person to a whole new level. We start slowly waking him up by turning on lights, and then his sound machine gradually gets louder. He fights it every step of the way. He is the last person I wake up in the morning and usually right before I leave. Everything is in the car packed and ready to go. The car is cranked, and Lily is in the car eating breakfast. His breakfast is already heated up, and juice is in his cup.
As his parents, we have tried just about everything to get him to wake up without a tantrum. We remain calm and patient. We’ve taken turns getting him ready to see if he responds better to one of us over the other. We have made him go to bed earlier. We even tried popping that little booty...We have tried ALL OF THE THINGS, Y’ALL!
Here we are though at 3.5 years old... with little to no progress, and it affects every single member of our house hold every single morning. No one wants to ride the struggle bus everyday. No. ONE. especially me. I want to be happy. I miss being a morning person.
I think about this a lot. I want to not only feel alive again, but live alive! I want to wake up ready to bounce out of bed! I want to go to bed with excitement for the next day. I want to wake up refreshed, renewed, and ready to start the day. So what do I do to get back to that?
I recenter every morning on the way to work by singing! I meditate and set the intention of my day... Music is powerful! I remind myself to breathe. I journal. A lot. I pray every time it crosses my mind, and sometimes I even write them down. I read a daily devotional centered around scripture. I socialize. I exercise. I drink H2O. I eat nutrient rich foods. You see, everyone has things that feed their souls. What are you feeding your soul?
When I wake up in a bad mood, before dealing with Knox, it is usually because I did not feed my soul the good stuff. I binge watched an emotional television show way past my bedtime, scrolled through all of the social media apps, ate sugary foods before bedtime, snoozed my alarm clock, and now I’m rushing and in a bad mood... maybe all of those things... maybe a few... maybe one, but I knew it wouldn’t feed my soul. I knew it would drain my mental energy. Why do we do that to ourselves?
I am choosing to practice self care from now on, and I don’t mean the typical “treat yo self” mentality that is incredibly popular right now. I mean following through with the routines that work for me and being disciplined enough to take good care of myself. If I don’t take care of me I can’t “raise my tribe with a positive vibe”...
I’m ready for that next level of living alive again. I’m ready for not only personal growth, but the growth of our community which leads to growth of the kingdom.
I can not be the only one. Right? Are you with me? Will you flourish with me?